"And Ruth the Moabitess said unto Naomi,
Let me now go to the field,
and glean ears of corn after him
in whose sight I shall find grace.
And she said unto her, Go, my daughter."
Let me now go to the field,
and glean ears of corn after him
in whose sight I shall find grace.
And she said unto her, Go, my daughter."
Ruth
2:2 KJV
Why
are you going on the Pilgrimage to Ireland?
Right
now this question remains to be answered. I can’t count how many times over the
last seven months that I’ve been asked why I was going on the Pilgrimage to
Ireland. What was it that was calling me to go? I still don't know why the idea
of this pilgrimage called to me so strongly in February; or continued
calling to me during the months leading up to it; or during the
Pilgrimage; or now, nearly four weeks after returning home. And I was told that
it's OK, give it time. But, maybe this post will help, at least in part, begin
to answer that question . . .
To
be quite honest, I haven’t really thought about this question the last few
weeks. That is until yesterday afternoon when this question just happened to
come into my mind as I was driving. As I drove over to town, a whole
conversation went on in my head and I thought I really needed to jot this stuff
down, you know . . . journal it. Now I so wish I had one of those little tape
recorders so I could have just had this conversation out loud and recorded it –
would have made writing it down so much easier! Something to put on my list of
‘must haves.’ Well, I finally got to a place where I could start writing my
thoughts down and the more I wrote the more it was beginning to sound like
something I should post on my blog, but then again, maybe not. Well, here’s
what came out of my conversation with myself . . .
So,
WHY did I go on this Pilgrimage? What was it that God wanted me to see?
Experience? Be a part of? or Do? Has God already revealed the answer to me
and I just haven't seen it, or heard it, yet? Is the answer right in front
of my face? It could be any one of these possibilities!
However,
my thoughts yesterday afternoon turned to include a recent comment made by a
Friend about at least some of my Blog posts.
This
Friend wrote to me: “And I think your posts have had a component of teaching
ministry in them, too.” Teaching ministry, really? Hummmm, if that’s so, it
certainly was unintentional on my part. But, yesterday afternoon her comment
came into my head, very loud and clear. Not screaming, but loud and clear none
the less.
OK,
so if I DID any ‘teaching ministry’ in my Blog posts, as this Friend has
pointed out or suggested to me, maybe it's something that's written between the
lines. I’ve had a habit for way too many years of reading between the lines, so
maybe I also have the ability to write between the lines, to put a suggestion
within my writing without using words. That is to say that the stories I’ve
written, about some of the experiences I had in Ireland and Northern Ireland,
have some sort of hidden message within them, but I was not intentionally
writing them to teach any lesson or lessons. I wrote each of my posts to share
with you about the different ‘ministries' I saw and felt in each of
those experiences. There may very well be a 'lesson' or ‘lessons’
within those stories, a kinda bonus! Lessons I've been called by God to
teach? But lessons for whom?
OR
is it that God has called or is calling me into some kind of 'teaching
ministry' or 'writing ministry?' If so, teaching or writing what?
And for whom? I've already told you that I'm not a story writer and that I
don't like to write. So, if this is what God wants of me . . . what direction
is this going?
Taking
a look back on my blog posts, these ideas came to mind and I’d like to share
them with all of you . . .
First
of all: Is there a lesson in the name I chose for my blog? OR Is the lesson in
the meaning of 'grace?' Is it not enough for me to find out 'what it
is that God is calling me to do?' Is that piece that I pulled out, as I
felt it calling to me, actually meant for other F/friends or family members
around me? Is God just using me to call attention to that little piece for
others? Is He using me and the ramblings in my blog to get others to just stop
and think about what it is they are doing, or not doing in their own lives;
their own family; their own Meeting/Church; their own community? I do know that
God uses us to do His work here on earth.
OR
is the lesson just within the whole of my blog? I did state 'what I will
share in this Blog will be spiritual in nature and will tell of the ministries
I find myself in along the journey.' I’ve made it known that I don't accept
it well when others tell me that I'm doing is 'ministry.' As I don't/haven’t
thought OR viewed what I do as ministry. Over the last several months however,
I have become a bit more accepting of this, but it's still difficult for me to
see. I will say that it has become easier for me to see and accept some of what
I do as ministry, others it's not. I’m still a work in progress; be patient
with me . . . God isn’t finished with me just yet!
'I
Shall Find Grace,' 'The Meaning of Grace,' 'Wonder,' 'I Don't Know Why She Does
This,' 'Being a Servant of God,' 'Colored Napkins,' 'A Bible for Ireland,' 'An
Irish Rainbow,' 'Circle of Friends,' 'Epilogue by Candlelight,' 'Bat Ministry,'
'Cups of Tea,' 'Ministry of a Sugar Cream Pie,' 'Ministry in Story and Song,'
'A Visit to See the Quaker Tapestry,' 'A Black Taxi Tour,' 'Music Ministries,'
'Family Reunion,' 'Grace Revisited,' and 'Ministry of the Chocolate Ginger
Cake,' the names of all my posts, so far .
. . Has God called me to minister through these posts? If so, minister to whom?
And minister about what?
As
you've read them: Have you really thought about the words you’ve read?
Have they spoken to you? How have they spoken to you? Have they tugged at your
heart? Have they made you a bit 'misty' eyed? Have they brought back
special memories from your childhood, or adult life? What have my words,
inspired by God, said to you? Have any of these posts made you think a bit
differently about yourself? About others? About your family? About a F/friend?
About a neighbor? Something you've done? Should have done? About your
Meeting/Church? About your Yearly Meeting? About ministry? About missions?
About mission work? About your faith? About your personal walk with God?
What
are you doing differently as a result of something that you've read in one of
my posts? As a result of something you felt after reading one of my posts? Are
my posts, and the 'teaching ministry,' that this Friend sees within
them, written to teach Friends who are reading them how to be better Friends?
To be more 'Quakerly?' To learn and/or see how to better work together? To show
them how to listen, and I mean really listen to each other? To listen to God?
Seems
the questions continue.